Keeping it light

I’m very disappointed with myself for how inconsistent and for just not being able to keep the writing schedule. No matter how good and beneficial I may think it is for me. Even when I push myself and do it and have a good feeling about the endeavor after the fact but when the next week comes, I seem to forget all the lessons and feedback I got from the last time and don’t want to do it again.

Maybe I have bitten more than I can chew and committed too much from the get-go. Although I would think that sitting down and writing for an hour once a week isn’t too much of a time commitment. But it is not about objective perception if the thing seems hard compared to whatever, what matters really is subjective feeling because that is how you are living. I may try to convince myself objectively that it is not that hard and should be quite easy, but if, at the end of the day, I still don’t do it, then the objective opinion is really not what matters, it is subjective what matters or maybe the key is for both of them to be as close as possible.

I have probably read way too many books regarding productivity and habits, but what always seems to be the advice is whenever you start something, you shouldn’t start at it way too hard from the get-go but instead start light and easy so not to get overwhelmed and quit the thing too quickly. So from now on, I will try to write something once a week but maybe only for a couple of minutes, a couple of paragraphs, and see how it works out.